Saturday, July 15, 2006
tdy's real shagged..din do anithing..waste of mi bloody time..lost mi calm..scolded so mani vuglarities..gosh..may god pardon mi sin..wanTed to haf some fun wif yc b4 he goes on his journey..but somehw some idiotic organisation decides to mk it a improbability..haiz..im supposed to give a SOMEONE ans..yeettt..i cant decide..cos it's so hard to..wif another princess in mi mind..frens wan me to give her up..yet no one noes hw hard is to give up someone so special and so beautiful...hafta go fetch a gal later so she wun be afraid to go home alone..reminds me so much abt then..when i wld juz hold her hand and send her home..memories aint beautiful..they r torturous..i wanna give up mi dreams fer her..to nt fly fer AUSSIE...but wld she even care..she wun..i had tried so hard..tried everything..in mi prayers..i prayed so hard..yet..yet..does god even noe im trying..is god trying so hard to mk mi test even more arduous?i was telling JAC..abt hw some value frenship..the diff definitions of them..mayB in mi view i truly treasure too much frenship..thus ending a relationship i nvr wanted to end..the responsibilty and improbability of a lasting relation made me gave it up..yet after tt i knew i cld carry on,juz like wad i once told her..she will be mi princess ferever..they SAID IT'S ALL OVEr..i NoE..and I triEd..bUt wY cant ANioNE juZ underStAnd tt It aint eZ..esP wad WE both went ThrU..the JOy,tHE SadNEs..ANxiEty..So mUch..sHe mAY ferGet buT i Cant..Jo stOod bY mE,jAc StooD bY mE,Kw Did ToO..thANk u aLl..i jUZ hOpe tHe stUpid loOse valve In mI heaRt miGht jUZ kIll mE uninTEntionally..maYb till den will i rest In peaCe..aNd enJoY the fReEdOm THat HAs diminiShed SiNce the daY i deCided tO saY gdbye..