Friday, July 21, 2006
hey guys..hw's it doing??
everything's well??i juz came back frm tuition..reali shagged..thinking thinking thinking abt nt teaching le..reali hate it..it's so long and i haf been underpayed..no wonder no one took up the job..and come on..im still a newbie..so wad do i expect rite?
i haf started falling fer a gal recently..slowly and reali starting to realise this aint a world onli fer yw..but a world which i can confidently fall in love again and be hapi abt..
i swear to lord mi god,the nxt gal tt i fall fer,i will love her so deeply..nvr to let her cry and nvr to mk her sad..
im so tired wif mking gals sad le..yw was one..i dun wanna do tt again le..even jac told me tt i was reali bad to treat her lytt..yw..DO U NOE HW SORI I AM...if onli time permits to bring me back to the past..i WILL HONOUR MI PROMISE OF MKING U MI PRINCESS..i cant becos i was so scared of committments..i cant reali fall fer u becos im scared..tt's y i tried so hard to brk up..
so i wun FALL fer u..in the end..ur tears juz made me give in..do u NOE hw mani times we brk up i was reali hapi..i tot i wun fall fer u le and this's the end of mi stupid commitments..yet..
u wld pull me back wif ur tears and ur plea..and till the last brk up when u said let's nt continue,i found out i haf fallen..fallen too deeply fer u le..
u noe hw i endure every day in the army without u yw..i cant..I HAF BEEN SWALLOWED BY TEARS..AND IN THE END..JO SAID IM WEAK..WHEN I TRIED SO HARD TO BE STRONG..TO BE WAD I CAN BE..AND NT LIKE NW.A WIMP WALLOWING IN SELF PITY..JO..IM SRY TO BE SUCH A burden..im sry..but when SoME one like yw comes along..it's juz too HARD to let go once and fer all..fer in time to come,i will juz be like the wind..blowing where god wishes,and till den i will nt be able to let god tk me by mi hand,becos wad took me by mi hand nw is purely juz misses and memories of yw..do U guys juz wun understand tt??kw..do u??