Saturday, July 29, 2006
tell me..wad did i do wrong jo??everytime i tried so hard to be understanding..and ur msgs r all so insensitive..and hurting..ur telling me ur kinda easily angered nowadays..but wad abt me..do u think i had a gd time??i cried yest and vomit like a kid again..i was weak and drunk..yet i had no one..and i had to care fer jac at the same time..noeing tt she was hurt and i tried mi best to be there fer her..then whu's here fer me??
and this stupid sheep whu doesnt even wanna put his or her name dwn actually had the audacity to tell me i cant b there fer her or him?am i a deliveryman or a macdonald's guy whu's there fer u 24/7..i wish i can.but i cant,u noe y??cos im someone whu's in the freaking NS..and i cant b there 4 everyone all e time..
u noe hw hard i tried juz 2 be there fer jac..do u noe hw tired i was yest..yet i juz acted as if i was some superhero?do u noe hw hard is it to solve mi own probs and at e same time tell mi frens to stop wrying abt their probs?hw does it feel to noe tt u haf a F**king loose valve linking 2 ur heart,and mum telling me tt going to aust may yet be a obstacle i haf to get thru..so wad if i get there..imagine the loneliness..and relationships!!i used to be so gd at them..and nw i cant even get things rite..i made promises..promises tt i tried to mk sure i fulfil them..
and jo..of all ppl..u tell me i dun understand..fine..i dun understand n i dun wish to understand..im a useless shit whu apart frm whining cant do much..if u guys think u guys r tired..let me tell u..im tired too..i haf mi probs..i cant be like superman!!!u get me!!!
to hate changes world,to love changes world too..the former or latter,up to you..