Saturday, August 26, 2006
wad haf i got miself into??wad haf i done??why am i feeling this way..this kind of emptiness..this kind of pessimism..i dun like tt..yet i felt no longer the same as b4..im sry o.i shld one day i let u all dwn..im reali sry..it seems tt the glory past cld nvr be further elevated or rekindled..it's time we move on wif our lives and do wad we wld like to..instead of staying ard and thinking everything's still the same..yest i had a chat wif jac..life's so unpredictable..trust me..i used to haf faith..but too mani uncertainties and so mani issues brought abt a new order..a new thinking..it's wad i had oways been afraid of..tt we haf all grown up..the fact tt we were so close then..it's pure innocence and the identity was brought abt by the common interest we once shared..it's diff nw..it's so diff nw..anw..i juz wanna tell u guys tt i love u guys lots then..and gave mi all..but nw..it has become like mi relationships..do u guys get it??dun blame me k??if i reali wld slowly move out of the world of urs..then tk the money tt i left in the O.I bank as a parting gift..i will still meet up occasionally..but other than tt..mayb it's juz mi life tt im leading..i dun wanna see the bubble burst b4 leaving..i wanna leave wif the memories still intact..without ani blemish..tt's all i wish fer..pardon me if i reali leave..anw..it's inevitable tt i go overseas..im sry...and jac..thx fer having such a chat wif me yest..it was fantastic..reali it was..nvr knew hw close we had become..at least on mi side..and as usual..the same suspects who show me concern more than anione..KW AND JO..I THANK LORD FER U..but yest was disappointing..mayb it was becos of me..it was pathetic..i lost the plot..and lost all...sry guys again if i were to leave.........if i were to depart...1....2....3.....4.....5......6.....7...??.....mayb it wun last a decade..but frens we still are....juz less in connection and spirit.....tk care peeps..im SO TIRED..SO TIRED..