Tuesday, January 02, 2007
i cant breath..everthing tt i ever knew..seems like bubbles..disappearing into the air and bursting b4 i can relieve the beautiful moment of it being made in the first place..i choose to end things when they haf to be ended..to juz leave abit of memories fer me to savour 10 yrs dwn the long winding road..memories somehow appear to be more of a dream..one tt u wish tt it will come true..one tt u tink it's gonna be real once u felt it closely enuff...
i used to tink me and her are so close..but the feeling's juz stopping..ending it rite where it should..she and him..well..still as close...im slowly moving away..slowing retreating into the shadows..i wun say let's end it or anithing animore..it's too dumb to do such things when ur 20..things will unfold as they will..when they do..u will smile at the slight lil prophecy tt u had made true..i dun wish to sound so dumb when i say i get jealous over lil things..but wad can i say when i juz dun wish fer ani more negative feelings to pop out of mi lil treasure box of emotions...
if god's hearing mi plea..let me start over again..start tmr by smiling..start tdy by ending yesterday...and finally..deliberating mi reel and real..mixing love with rationale..she cried..and i cried..nvr knowing wad a tear frm her can deprive me of mi silly smile fer as long as she is sad..
i wish to change..to reali feel tis time..and delusion,illusion..let it juz be a thing of the past wun it so??