Saturday, April 21, 2007
i nvr once hated anione.. angry wif anione?? i guess tt happens to alot of pple.. and well.. im no exception.. haha.. but since the time kw din reply me.. haha.. im glad everything is over.. i went fer mi pre test fer driving tdy.. passed it.. was so hapi.. was rushing to tell anione close.. haha.. so i managed alvin, sl, jl and of cos the godsis tt loves me so much.. the rest.. hm.. din reali tell anione else le.. haha.. 30th of apr!!! mi license's coming!!! and im glad tt gd things are starting to happen.. and in the meanwhile.. i juz wanna remain hapi fer the rest of the 8 months.. o.i is a thing of the past... and it will be.. i went to mi MO's wedding yest.. tot of wad mine wld be like.. it used to be 1 table full of mi O.I dudes.. the rest of the tables dun matter to me le.. haha.. and i was serious.. i took them so seriously i cld even give up mi dream fer them.. no longer so.. i feel relieved tt i receive no msg frm anione of them.. glad tt they haf forgotten abt me within such a short span of time.. juz like jac.. haha.. im glad.. and this time.. im serious.. i told miself i wldnt find another piece of heaven like O.I animore.. but does tt matter?? 8 months.. haha.. and it's May soon.. so actually it's 7 months.. haha.. hw ironic.. i noe them fer 7 yrs if u count this yr.. haha.. but owell... i used to promise to bring jac and jo on a ride when i get mi license.. it's so near nw.. but i dun feel the promise being fulfilled.. they can all wait fer kw.. anw.. he's the one hu nds all their love.. kw had one thing rite.. if u dun tink abt it.. it dun reali matter animore... i gt tt in mind.. i slept more than 7 hrs tdy.. tt's the longest in two weeks.. i read the bible.. it tells me abt brotherhood, frenship.. i quote: "a fren that sticks closer than a brother", unquote.. im sry i cant fulfil tt as a fren.. yest was the last day i cried.. jl asked me if i wld feel thick-skinned or anithing if i wan them to tk me back.. i say no.. and no to asking them to tk me back.. i dun deserve it aniway.. a fren tt wants to leave is a fren nt worthy to be asked to stay.. im glad no one objected this time.. objection oways mk it harder.. and no objection simply tells me they are tired.. why wldnt they be.. it's me creating all sort of bullshit.. and haf i ever be a true fren.. ask them.. haha.. apart from sharing a ipod wif kw fer jo.. haha.. i haf nvr did anithing tt's worth mentioning.. can u imagine?? i guess even an aquaintance of kw wld be much more worthy to be called a gd fren of kw.. most prob they are enjoying dinner outside nw ba.. since no one is ard on the net.. gd fer them..
Juz nw al called me.. asked me abt the O.I funds.. i said i haf no part in it.. al asked me wad happened.. i changed the topic.. wow.. i still love alvin so much.. haha... but mayb al was rite.. we werent as close as b4 le.. as i drove back frm JB to spore.. i saw the traces of memories.. the times we spent in jb.. the times tt we luff at each other's joke.. the times tt we shared a common understanding nt being easily deciphered by anione else whu admits they are part of the outsiders.. but then.. it's all part of memories.. jo used to say.. jiunn.. move on.. there's certainly no pt in looking at the past.. becos wad comes b4 the future is the present.. and wad comes b4 the present.. it simply is juz memories... memories are on their own a sort of formal joke book.. which u luff when u turn them page by page.. whu sticked wif the team throughout.. tw,kh,kw,al..
do u realise?? it's actually all the guys.. they are the ones whu stuck wif the grp thru all odds.. and at one pt of time.. even kw is tired.. being frens nds fate.. being the best of frens nd determination and defying all odds.. some pple come and leave, come again.. and leave.. others.. they wun leave unless they die.. and wad forms O.I.. frenship.. so may i wish kw,al,kh,tw,sw,jac,jo the best and neverending frenship.. fer S.H.E when no one ever leaves no matter wad.. im sry i haf to end in the resignation letter... gd nite to those whu ever bother to read mi rotten entries...