Sunday, May 20, 2007
if i cld thank god wif mi life.. i wld.. by presenting mi life as a success.. im showering god wif the best present ever shown to lord himself.. i thank him nt becos he's mi lord and deserve praise by default.. he let me live mi dream.. change the fact tt i shld change and nt deny miself another shot at life.. gave me frens so impossibly cool.. and gave me a family tt i wld nt exchange fer anione else.. 1239 a.m.. i missed NR6 juz becos i was doing something rather stupid.. and i watched the bus leave... i was infuriated.. yet i was contented... lord has shown me tt it is indeed stupid and petty to do such a silly thing.. i din do it.. becos im nt afraid to admit to mi mistake nw and beg fer forgiveness.. i dare to mk a change.. dare to issue a statement.. dare to present miself to pple and tell them i aint perfect.. i aint infallible.. and most imptly.. im pure flesh and blood.. made up of emotions tt overwhelm rationale at times.. deciding the beta of the worse at times.. 0121 a.m i witnessed generosity.. i witnessed kindness.. i realised tt im nt standing alone on this lonely world.. i haf pple ard created by god to bear testimony of the greatness and selflessness of lord himself.. fer they stand before me with acts tt bear resemblance of the almighty.. i salute these pple.. i appreciate their smiles when they return a gratifying thank from me...
i realise that i dun haf enuff cash in mi ezlink to tk the night rider.. and more imptly.. i do nt haf change fer cash... i tried to change fer smaller change.. but was rejected by pple whu was nonchalent and most probably do nt haf the small change themselves.. then this gal popped out frm nowhere and decide to save me from further humiliation.. she passed me 3 bucks and gt me out of the shithole i dropped miself unwittingly into.. i was so grateful.. absolutely astounded by the generosity becos she demanded no returns.. she even smiled and said it's ok.. dun mention it.. i was at a total loss of words.. it was fantastic to see the gracious side of singaporeans ( long deemed as manners monsters).. i was excited at the prospects of seeing such pple.. i was overwhelmed wif feelings.. all i cld reply was thank u.. i dunnoo..... thank u.. i dunno... and it was dumbfounded.. long before i cld regain mi gift of speech, i found miself sitting dwn on a empty seat nearby and smiling to miself fer such an angel.. in another 20 mins.. another couple renact the whole scene again.. saving a damsel in distress.. unfortunately there aint a term fer MEN.. fer this time.. it is yet another guy whu nds to be rescued frm this undoubted thorough embarrassmentT
GOD MI LORD.. PARDON MI UNDOINGS.. DELIVER ME FRM TEMPTATIONS.. ALLOW ME TO DRAW STRENGTH FRM U AS U SHOW ME THE DAILY ROUTINES OF LIFE WITH SUCH CONVICTIONS.. LORD, TEACH ME THE WAYS TO BE A BETA PERSON.. TO UNDERSTAND PPLE MORE, RATHER THAN DEMAND UNDERSTANDING FROM FRENS TT STOOD SO FIRMLY BY MY SIDE WHEN I NEED THEM OR DESERT THEM.. TRANSCEND UPON HEAVEN TO BRING ME UP TO UR KINGDOM WHEN TIME ENDS AND WHEN JUDGEMENT SHALT BE DELIVERED.. THRUST ME NT INTO THE FIERY GATES OF HELL BUT LIFT ME INTO UR HOLY PEDESTAL WITH UR ASSEMBLAGE OF ANGELS.. LET ME BASK IN UR GLORY AS U SIT IN UR FITTING THRONE.. REPEL ME OF THE EVIL POWERS OF THE DARK LORD, TEMPT ME NT, YET WIF ARDOUS JOURNEYS STRENGTHEN MI WILL AND SHARPEN MI WITS.. IN UR NAME I PRAY...
A prayer i wish to pray fer all of u out there tt i love.. my family,kw,jo,tw,kh,al,yc,hb,jl,sw,ck,joanne,des and so mani more....