Saturday, September 13, 2008
Why must i go to church just because people want me to? why must i go to church and listen to people speak just because people want me to? And why cant i feel near GOD at home? is it just a pure excuse that i am lazy? Maybe indeed i am.. But i never loved anyone or anything more than HIM.. I know and i realize.. i will never pull miself to yet another god or idol, for HE is one and ONLY! i feel bad and guilty, just by not going to church, but then again, i dun wish to step into that church again. 48.7 million in donations and earnings? what kind of church is this? Jesus preached everywhere, stood everywhere and spoke words of wisdom everywhere, should we be confined to just churches? and meet our brothers and sisters, or those that we proclaim or tink it is so? This is absurd, getting more and more absurd.. reasons dun fit into description anymore, i hope i see him soon, hope he provides answers for me which i found so profoundly lost.. I wan GOD, i need him.. Holy daddy, where are you? seemingly distant, for i distanced away from you.. But if church is somewhere i have to go to proclaim my faith and love for you, then Lord, i will not go there juz to prove my case. Because your love and mine, there is nothing to prove. It's there to stand..