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If only you were here to watch that snow..

2009-02-03T10:29:00.003Z

Snow snow Snow... Snowball fights, charging down the slopes with nothing but cardboards.. it's all fun.. But when the snow started coming down really madly, all i wished was that you could be here, despite everything, i think maybe we can watch snow someday together, a promise i made you then no?

just a little time for God each day..

2009-02-01T01:04:00.002Z

I have realised so greatly that when you say that you have so little time that you can no longer give your time to God. It is so wrong. Remember that God gave you your 24 hours. How can it be possible that you cannot allow for maybe half an hour just to be with God.. This is my prayer..

God, teach me to live in your time, in your grace and in your bliss. Teach me to show my gratitude for you every morning, afternoon and night. Teach me in my misgivings and forgive me of my past, present and future. Lord my God, you are mighty to save and you have blessed me with all that i have and what i do not. For in You, i found that i have nothing lacking. Lord Jesus Christ, show me the truth and love me for who i am. Lord Jesus, give me time for you, and you only, and let me learn to conquer temptations, sadness, loneliness and all negativity. God, let me bask in your glory and truth and let me love all in the way you have love me today, tomorrow and yesterday. In your Name i pray.

I will take a more active role in being a christian.. i will do more.. Lord, give me strength..

HwaJiunn...

It's time to say goodbye?

2009-01-22T08:24:00.003Z

After trying so hard and so many promises... It has finally ended has it not? The route to happiness just is not that easy.. I tried so hard to hold your hand.. But this time, i decided to let it go once again.. And you... You gave up too.. No more tears, no more hopping that i will stay... Just a simple, take care and that you understand.. 1 yr plus? it has been wonderful no? i teared.. But it was such simple tears.. I didn't tell you.. Because at this point, there really is no need for it anymore.. This time, i can see that you are determined.. And me... I am really tired... Maybe this is the time for the blog to end.. Maybe this is the time that i would learn how to walk this road myself.. Thank you... You have been more than just anyone, you have been my everything... Good bye...

Resolution... A new twist..

2009-01-08T16:01:00.006Z

Has anyone been told that they should be good boys or good girls this new year? This year has come pretty quickly aint it so? You see, time is always moving forward and people grumble how fast time passes, but isnt this a way for them to try and convince another person that SINCE THIS IS A NEW YEAR, we should all learn to be better.. You get what i mean? Nevermind, the whole paragraph above is to show how dumb people all get and all the wasted contradictions that would serve better had they not exist in the first place at all, got my irony and contradictory comment? If you didn't, let me tell you... See, if wasted contributions did not exist, how can they serve? but well. i Guess 100/100 people would figure out this irony and contradiction and there would be no one left scratching their heads trying to sort out this whole permutation.. Ahz.. Then there is this problem about a resolution.. Have you thought about what you decided to do this year? As a new person of a new year, have you thought about the achievements and the infallible plan to get it done? IF you had, or trying to get one in place, look at it and ask yourself a simple question.. Is this the one i tried getting into place LAST YEAR? 2008.. Is it or is IT NOT? haha.. And if it is, then why on earth are u repeating one that you have so much conviction in? Doesnt reali make sense does it? yeah.. It has never made sense in the first place.. My friend once asked me what is life.. and i replied her, Life is contradictions, Life is confusion, and Life is a puzzle which no one can solve.. And she asked me, is Life so negative in your eyes? i told her, na.. these all aint negativity.. It's juz a way of describing life. I din say life SUCKS, as mani of you would, i DIN say Life is not worth living, as we could see all the suicidal teenagers who fall off the building just becos their boyfriends/girlfriends said, "oh, i REALI dun love you animore.." You see, if u reali wan love so much, then start by loving, start by loving your life.. Wouldn't it be more important? OR would it not? i am not exactly sure now..

Here Comes the important part of my story, my title is about resolution aint it so? so if i do not provide a resolution fitful for an entry, then wouldnt i, in Singapore's education system, FAIL IN ANSWERING THE QUESTION AND THUS OUT OF PT? well.. You see, trying not to fall out of point has become.
increasingly awkward. In classes, you decide to keep quiet for fear of a wrong answer, which is OF COS, not to the point in which the lecturers want it to.. And lecturers wan you to answer the question despite noeing you probably gonna give her some crap answer. Look, here isnt the lecturer quite aware that the point whereby you probably wouldnt noe the answer, and yet she insisted, has she failed in her point? or rather, had she fell out of point? I am not too sure about it.. But one thing for sure, if readers do read all these, they would probably be asking where is the new yr resolution that i have stamped so wildly in the title that i gave... And they would expect a new twist to a resolution that i might have given, this would inevitably fit into the category of the title that i have given, This is what a typical person would do and think, NO? But yet, if you would juz combine a and typical, u come across atypical, which is rather the total opposite of the whole issue of typical.. and then, i would laugh my head off trying to come to terms that you guys have actually bothered reading this LONG post....

Oh... i did say a new twist rite? and resolution... It's juz a word no? Did i fall out of point now?

Love you Guys!^.^

Have you haf that thought that you regretted something?

2009-01-05T23:22:00.002Z

It started something small, spiralled to something big, became an issue, took on new dimensions, and finally, you cant handle it....
Do you let it go? my Emotions are so confused now, i am so confused with this life that i am having. Am i really living a real life, or am i juz someone who is living by the wearing of a mask. I don't think i would have an answer anitime soon, yet i wish to haf an answer. I cant risk losing everything, yet i cant risk losing anything. What can everything be when you simply dun haf anything? Chances don't come by every second, but something else does, something like love.. I hope i would understand love one day, and i hope i would understand what it is meant by being love and loving someone. I have someone whom i love greatly now, but will that be enough? It seems that it's not enough loving, there must be more than love, there must be.... just abit more..
A new year, A new beginning, the same old day awakening, the same old night falling asleep. Why cant life be abit different, or at least take a new twist, why cant i wake up being a samurai, or wake up being a tycoon? beggar? hm... too many thoughts, too little time, too many whys, too little answers..
I am still as confused, pardon my entry, for it was not meant for you, neither is it for me..

2009-01-03T23:17:00.003Z

Hapi New Year... It aint an ez yr, but we survived.. let's survive another 70 yrs Tgt! to my besties and my lovely...

-Dawn-kw-jo-tw-kh-yc-ck-sf-sw-jac-des-al-

Let's go!

2008-12-22T21:02:00.001Z

It dOESnt MAttEr HoW FaR i Am, My HEarT Is AlwAys WitH YoU...

Hj.

2008-12-10T12:07:00.002Z

Christmas coming, Jingle bells.. Jingles bells..... I just hope you are here... I am not sure whether how i am feeling, but i guess it is quite a good feeling... When things no longer fluctuate, when things no longer feel so jittery.. Does it mean that it has kinda settled? when it has settled, does it mean that i am ready? i hope i find out soon enough and not make you wait..

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2008-12-03T19:37:00.001Z

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Be a good boy k? and repent...

2008-12-02T10:23:00.001Z

Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.

God is GOOD.. not today, not tomorrow, and definitely not yesterday.. He's GOOD forever, though i was suay in my lucky draw.. Cant blame my Holy Daddy though..

Together we can.. Choir RoX

2008-11-30T09:22:00.003Z

Come December... It is what all of you have been waiting for.. The huge event of the year... After a split that spanned over more than 5 years, it's time, once again to renew that laughter and joy... CHOIR GATHERING... Be sure to turn up for this one in a lifetime event.. But before that, be sure to take part in the process... CHeers!

2008-11-19T11:05:00.000Z

世界が私に対してあっても、私はそれに対して私が正しかったしたものを信じるべきである私立つ。これは私が過したいと思う、これは私が過す生命である生命であり。強さは主張から中から、それ来る間違っていない考えるものをすることを来る。

Hwa Jiunn

Dreams...

2008-11-18T00:54:00.001Z

As long as i have tried my best, even if things cannot work out in the end.. When i turn back and see what i had done in the past, i know would never regret...

I put my future in God's hands..

Dreams... Fallacy?

2008-11-18T00:07:00.002Z

When dreams become an uncertainty no matter how hard you try to go near it, what can one do? At this point of time, is it better to just give it up?

Disappointment...

2008-11-13T20:02:00.001Z

It's ok to be disappointed once in a while, but the more important thing is, don't be disappointed forever.. i am feeling a bit disappointed now.. HAHA.. but it's ok, everything would be just fine after 1 hour.. and nothing changes...

HwaJiunN.S.H.E

2008-11-12T19:07:00.000Z

Eyes damn pain.. She's dead!

Wishing upon a falling star......

2008-11-11T21:44:00.001Z

I wish i can stop making mistakes, i wish i can be perfect.. it's nothing but just a wish isn't it?

2008-11-11T17:51:00.002Z

i miss every single one of you O.I, i miss u guys so much...

hope everyone is doing fine back there...

MISSES!

2008-11-09T09:50:00.002Z

I will stay strong, for that so many people that love and care for me.. i will persevere and make this stay in England a fulfilling one.. Stay with me my loved ones, and God lead me on your righteous path..

Gan.O.I.DawnJiunn.

Commander-in-Chief, Barack Obama, and lessons beyond..

2008-11-05T10:55:00.003Z

He was but a black, surviving in a land who denied the blacks civil rights for long, yet in a historic night, he secured the presidency with a landslide victory over McCain, the republican who has long survived the lands of Vietnam, who presented himself as a military man. As the administration of Bush fell short of expectations with the issues of Wall Street Crisis and notoriously the Iraq War, the citizens of the United States of America wants change, and change they would have. By electing a Black as their new president, they have broken precedent, anomaly was not a rarity in the superpower, but this election has secured more than just an able president, they have secured change that will make the world better, like what Luther King has said, " i have a dream". This becomes a dream that the americans has finally presented as a gift to Mr Martin Luther King, the indifference towards race, the attitude that race is none but secondary. He said, " This election is not about me, it's about you." It can never be more right, the americans need a clear direction, a luxury that has been lost in the years of Bush, the world's sole Superpower needs reconstruction after the turmoil and sufferings that denied the people their peace and comfort. He once said, "This is not white Carolina, this is not black Carolina, this is North Carolina." This is a proclamation of faith that loyalty to the country transcends beyond that of race, and as Martin Luther King put it aptly, "Our loyalties must transcend our race, our tribe, our class, and our nation; and this means we must develop a world perspective" This is but the beginning of a new dawn, and the transition of ineptitude to pure efficacy.
Political views are best left to those who vie for it, what i wish for is the beauty of the determination of human race to overcome the debacles that seek to ruin the world, and as we see the rise of a new coming, the promise of a better future begins its rough journey..
He said this, "If you’re walking down the right path and you’re willing to keep walking, eventually you’ll make progress."
Barack obama, U.S new president....
Pure Testimony that hope remains in those who trust in it, and faith remains strong in those who remain firm. May God bless this world... It needs alot of Blessing... hor? hahahaha..
-HwaJiunN-

2008-11-02T12:25:00.001Z

Will you be there when i fall, when i cry, when i need you?

2008-10-31T20:59:00.001Z

When u shine in the darkness, you are visible and grand, but that does not make you outstanding, for it's dark..
It's only when you shine in the brightness, there u have earn your keep, and make yourself truly exceptional.

-HwaJiuNn-

2008-10-22T19:26:00.001+01:00

My contacts: +44 07542036048

2008-10-22T00:41:00.005+01:00

He made me who i am today. He forgave my sins of yesterday, today and tomorrow..

Thank you Lord.. For the people who have appeared in mi life and stayed.. I wish one day, those that have departed will turn around and say "hi, hj, i am back..."

" do we not savour the moment when a friend turns back and say that he's sorry more than those who have stayed vigilantly with us all this while?"

2008-10-21T22:55:00.001+01:00

给我一首歌的时间...

2008-10-21T19:41:00.002+01:00

raeil thuohgt i heva frogtoten lla atbuo uyo..

HwaJiunn

2008-10-20T23:15:00.002+01:00

I am sad.. Wrongly compared..
She's devastated.. cause i realise i did nothing but tamper with her sensitive issues.. She cried, my heart died..
I am sorry.. I would not do it again, i would remember that everyone at the end of the day deserves respect.. and me.. i juz aint giving enough to you, and so much for proclaiming how much i love you..

-hwaJiunn-Dawn-

2008-10-17T12:00:00.001+01:00

Jokes. Truth.

Differentiate them.. it makes one's life better..
and i dun mean math differentiation.. now that's logic..

2008-10-16T22:04:00.003+01:00

He said, " i love her the same way as the day when i first saw her."
He said, " No, you should love her deeper, with everyday that you have known her more."

Yeah.. That's why i love you more now.. This is for you, and stop doubting that was it for you or not..

.HwaJiunn.

2008-10-16T13:09:00.000+01:00

I am getting something for my birthday? really?wow.. tt's cool.. haha.. here it goes...

CORNWALL HOUSE
ST GERMANS ROAD EXETER
EX4 6TJ
UK
Room K407
Hwa Jiunn Gan

wow... do i get a gift? do i do i? LOLOLOL.. haf a nice day guys..

2008-10-15T22:40:00.002+01:00

I L O V E Y O U
I L V O E Y U O
I L O E V O Y U

Take a pick won't you?

What matters is not the size, but the thought. Isn't it?

2008-10-14T20:43:00.002+01:00

His grace... My humility...
My loneliness.. His Love...

_hwaJiuNN_

2008-10-14T09:55:00.002+01:00

Alright, i got to admit.. I miss malaysia so much.. i miss my cousin, i miss my granny, i miss my granddad, i miss the late nights with my roomie.. and i miss the life where i am just another someone.. not like the ODD one out.. i Dun like that..

2008-10-13T22:09:00.003+01:00

Sorry for creating such a hassle, cos i was really pissed with people coming to my blog and smearing rubbish... HAHA.. so yeah..
Gosh, i was woken up by something called the fire alarm.. so here i am.. blogging.. owell.. NITEZ..

Did HE wake me up to get me to STUDY? mayb...

2008-10-12T23:47:00.005+01:00

What do you find when you walk out of your comfort zone? I find loneliness..

Unbearable...

-hWaJiuNn-

2008-10-12T19:38:00.002+01:00

comfort? what's that? the pastor tried to explain it in great detail tonight, but to be honest, i still could not get the whole picture.. I am quite stupid arent i? let's go to something that is abit more interesting..

A bird was let out the cage, but it chose not to fly? was it too dependent on the cage and the fact that there will be free food and people who will enjoy its singing? then it would not treasure the fact to fly into the woods or even more to enjoy life which it should.. Maybe not enjoy life, but just to make it's life worthy.. Then we get to the issue of worthy, what is worthy? does the definition depends on you or me? or does it depend what anione think it is? i am not sure, but what i am really sure is that, if i were the bird, i would fly.. Look at me now, i flew half the world, got stuck in a place which i am and will never be comfortable with, missing everyone, You, My family and my wonderful O.I.. Hey, if that aint a experience, i wonder what is?..... Worth decides what excuse u will come up the next time u were pushed to a decision..

2008-10-10T21:07:00.004+01:00

I had no doubts there are some who love me with their hearts..

My dad(grateful for your sacrifice dad)

My mum(thanks mum for bringing me up the way i am now)

My brothers(elder bro, i am not a kid, younger bro, study hard u idiot)

My sister( stop smiling)

Dawn( Your Wonderful)

Ker wei( your the BEST bro)

Joanna(your my superfriend!)

And there's Always HIM...(your.. PERFECT)...

2008-10-08T22:37:00.001+01:00

i think i got it right this time, finally..

Life and love is the same, it's LIKE A CIRCLE, it goes one full turn, and at the end of the day it juz manages to go back to the place where it always would be, just that there is a certain something that one has to do, and that is.. BE PATIENT.. God loves us all.. despite how flawed we all are..

-HwaJiuNn-

2008-10-07T15:04:00.002+01:00

A story, half learnt, becomes half lies, a truth, half told becomes incomplete.. A love, half given, results in tears and heartaches..

Let there be no lies anymore, and no tears anymore, but it cannot be possible, for there is one thing that man has to confessed upon.. we are not flawless..

.HwAjIuNn.

2008-10-07T09:56:00.003+01:00

i had the weirdest dream yesterday nite.. and to be honest, i still think it's funny even till today... How can i dream of hIM... it's like SO OUT OF THE WORLD. i dreamt of hIM, and it's not GOD, cos i wld refer GOD to HIM, so it's reali not him, but hIm, weird crap.. not that i am close to him, not even aniwhere near... alright, let's spell out that name... F.R.A.N.K.I.E.. can u imagine? gosh.. to all the xms pple, u noe who he is rite? gosh.. freaky.. and i chatted to 2 spainards today.. how cool is that, they were so much friendlier.. but the language barrier, there's a small problem.. One favours Valencia and the other, Real Madrid, if you ask me, i like none, ManU forever!!! some part of my school for all of u to see.. Oh, and i went to run yesterday, IT WAS LIKE SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO COLD LAH..

2008-10-06T11:58:00.000+01:00

Well, today is hm.. monday? i suppose.. HAHA.. and im freezing, cos the radiator is off.. and i am freezing.. HAHA.. but it's ok, i am gonna go cook miself some lunch, nds to do some useful stuff aint it so? haha.. and school starts on wed.. and hopefully by then i wld have met more friends and be happier abt life than what it is now.. HAHA.. see ya around guys.. and god bless everyone!

2008-10-04T17:24:00.003+01:00

Alright, boring day, went down to the stupid city centre, and came back after getting mi sim card and oso some of the daily stuff.. ate pizza for lunch... and oso DINNER.. plus a cup of hot tea, trying to make it sound as if it's a gd deal, but owell.. but i saw this chapel which is reali nice and decided to take a picture of it, hope u guys like it.. will be back with more, with love, hj!

Tot it reali looks nice.. haha.. but hopefully nxt time i can tk it with a picture of me as well.. LOL..

2008-10-02T17:26:00.001+01:00

I reached exeter le................. bleahx.........

2008-09-29T09:58:00.003+01:00

This time, it's for real.. I am leaving. After much aplomb and terrible timings and disgusting delays, i am on my way to England, Exeter. Apprehensive yet excited. When Ker Wei said those words to me, i said really? Now i am experiencing it, and i realize it is true, it is that apprehensive and exciting. I know GOD will be there for me as he has always done so despite my failings. Here are thanks to people who stood so closely by me, see you guys soon.. in another 50 hours.......
My family, Dawn, O.I, You Cai, Ling Hui, Addy, Winnie, Cindy, Jiang Min..... Whoever i did not list here, U know how much u all have done for me, and from the bottom of my heart, thank you!

2008-09-25T08:08:00.002+01:00

I told You before didn't i? that this are my best friends? din i? i Didn't? i must be mad. Cos these are my Most Wondrous Friends. Put it in this perspective. You know great friends, but realized slowly one by one left. Then after a while, at the end of 6 years, there is this promise that made all of you came together once again, isn't that wonderful? By the Way, we are the World of Friends.. haha.. WoF.. otTherwise better known as O.I..

2008-09-25T08:06:00.000+01:00

2008-09-25T07:57:00.001+01:00

Have not I commanded thee?
Be strong and of a good courage;
be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed:
for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
Joshua 1:9

Why should i worry when GOD is with me?

2008-09-25T07:08:00.002+01:00

Let me see, what is the most important thing in life?

i asked 8 people, and that's their answers..

firstly, i Spoke to GHJ,

GHJ: GOD

Then i spoke to HJ,

HJ: family

Then i Spoke to HwaJ,

HwaJ:Dawn

Then i Spoke to GanHwaJ:

GanHwaJ: Friends

Then i Spoke to GanHJ:

GanHJ: Studies

Then i Spoke to GanHJiunn:

GanHJiunn: Health

Then i Spoke to GhwaJiunn:

GHwaJiunn: Happiness

Then i Spoke to GhwaJ:

GHwaJ: You

You see, life isnt juz about You, there's happiness, health, friends, your loved ones and GOD..

I left You as the last to remind that none should be worried about how YOU should be shaped, but put it in a different perspective and YOU becomes the second person, and i become I.. Once life is about YOU and not ME.. then this world, is truly a greater and happier place..

2008-09-22T04:04:00.000+01:00

1) i am too sensitive.
2) i am too sensitive.
3) i am too sensitive.
4) i am too sensitive.
5) i am too sensitive.
6) Maybe I am not?

Pre-departure????

2008-09-21T01:46:00.001+01:00

If dreams were smashed, if hope is dashed, i can Only Turn To HIM...
Lord, provide for me as you have always done..

2008-09-18T07:25:00.003+01:00

She forced me to write an blog for me.. But owell, i wanted to write fer her cos she matters the world to me. Despite all the troubles and problems that we faced, at the end of the day, we managed to get through, she's pretty, simple demanding YET innocent. Staying around her makes me feel that she's someone i could rely on everyday of my life. True to her own name, she brings about joy and light to me.. Now that i am leaving for England, i really hope that we can do well in this relationship we fought so hard for.. I remembered we once told each other, it's impossible for us to tell each other that we will LUV each other forever, but that we will try.. No matter hw long the road may be, no matter hw tedious the time will be, we will strive on, cause this was a hard relationship to begin with, then how can we expect life to be easy on us. We will try, and we will conquer.. hee.. And that to me, is of utmost importance, no pressure, just walking the life that we would like to, and at the end of the day, we will see where we end up, and what we end up as... Signing off.. will write u another entry really soon.. FOr yOu dAwnIe..

2008-09-17T05:01:00.003+01:00

Wish list for My 21st birthday:
God's Love: Received (Priceless)
Ticket To London: received (SGD2,680)
Tissot V8: received (SGD510)
Polo Raphl Lauren Polo-T: No
Adidas Sweater: received (SGD105)
Nike Dunks: received (SGD140)
Optical Mouse: No
Olympus Camera: received (SGD 260)
Polo Raphl Lauren Sweater: No (SGD 192)
Manchester United Jersey: No
Friendship: Received (Priceless)
Love: Received (Priceless)

Bose EarPhone: No
Wishing everyone will be happy and safe, all those who matters... that is the most important..

2008-09-14T14:06:00.002+01:00

Alright, You see, there is a friend who once said to me when i believed in GOD vehemently, the word is vehemently, do u read the bible? i said, of cos i read the bible, what are you talking about.. so he said, then do u believe in the bible? then i said, of cos i do.. i believe in HIS word.. then he said, well.. if that is sincerely so, then why do u insist it's HIS words? after all, it's written by man isn't it? i was dumbfounded, i said.. Hm... maybe it's god's words through the voices of man? i was not totally convinced at that point in time.. Then i read this book, the author questioned, why did GOD ask abraham to Kill his own son, if abraham was the right person, i am sorry, i am not well versed in the bible, no time that i would willingly spare, which made things particularly guilty and insincere. So is killings right? then the plagues? the storms? So Many questions to answer. I never doubted GOD, never challenged his words. But suddenly, i realized i should not follow blindly what the pastors or the bible says, but insisting on finding HIS word, he gave me a brain didn't he? And then Rahul came to me one day and told me something really amusing.. He asked questions about the faith to some "experts" and guess what they replied. They said, " just read and believe, don't ask.." wow.. In my days alone spent in another country, i learnt so much, that's why when i came back to Singapore and saw the disgusting figures, it totally threw me off, never would i wan to enter that church.. Yes, our dear Pastor Prince is absolutely charming and charismatic, but i would rather have a simple day with GOD than to listen to bombastic words and wake up the other day feeling, hm.. so that is it? I heard about miracles, but never witness one, maybe i am JUST not SINCERE enough.. I trust that HE is somewhere near, bringing me nearer to HIM..

CHURCH is a place to give thanks? Y not home? Jesus once commented that should you pray behind doors when no one can see you.. ha.. of cos.. there are so many different interpretations to it. How do u define "jealous love"? There are so many IFs in this world.. Yet, I know that it is because of Satan that this world is so corrupted and dead, but if Satan is so Powerful, then when is God stepping in? I miss those days where i decide that everything is right, but as time goes by, as Religion became nothing more than a stroke of passion that heats up terrorism, when Religion is beginning to generate Revenue more than anyone can imagine, when God's Humble Houses are turned into multi-million projects, then something is wrong..

There was a time when i cried when i prayed, listened to Christian songs until i fell aslp, at that time, i felt so near him, not because i was in Church or because i was a Christian, but because at the moment, HE was just my friend, my father, my confidante, my Lord, and my GOD...

"He who yearns nothing be blessed."

2008-09-13T16:47:00.002+01:00

Why must i go to church just because people want me to? why must i go to church and listen to people speak just because people want me to? And why cant i feel near GOD at home? is it just a pure excuse that i am lazy? Maybe indeed i am.. But i never loved anyone or anything more than HIM.. I know and i realize.. i will never pull miself to yet another god or idol, for HE is one and ONLY! i feel bad and guilty, just by not going to church, but then again, i dun wish to step into that church again. 48.7 million in donations and earnings? what kind of church is this? Jesus preached everywhere, stood everywhere and spoke words of wisdom everywhere, should we be confined to just churches? and meet our brothers and sisters, or those that we proclaim or tink it is so? This is absurd, getting more and more absurd.. reasons dun fit into description anymore, i hope i see him soon, hope he provides answers for me which i found so profoundly lost.. I wan GOD, i need him.. Holy daddy, where are you? seemingly distant, for i distanced away from you.. But if church is somewhere i have to go to proclaim my faith and love for you, then Lord, i will not go there juz to prove my case. Because your love and mine, there is nothing to prove. It's there to stand..

2008-09-10T09:20:00.003+01:00

Let me say this, " in life, there's only 1 choice, to live it."
then there's this second thing in life which people din realise exist..
That is.. "sometimes, living your life is not juz about living your life, it's putting others in a life which belongs to you, infiltration of lives, amalgamation of thoughts, fusion of souls." i call it life..

2008-08-27T13:54:00.002+01:00

Alright, it's time to move on to the nxt person.. and this is none other than the fantastic YY!! alright, she's called yin yen, and she appeared one day in front of me and asked me this reali stupid question, Hi, hm.. are u hwa jiunn? i am like duh.. of cos i am hwa jiunn, and she juz smiled and the nxt thing i noe she's gone.. disappeared le.. LOL.. so here goes the story......

I din reali like her at first, she looks reali crazy and irritating, and as usual, i dun like someone else to steal mi spotlight.. so i juz let her do wad she wants, the first time we reali chatted was when we had to do the stupid legal skills crap assignment, and she asked me if i was in the same GROUP.. like duh.. i will tell u why it's lIKE SO DUH.. anw, we exchanged msn cos we had to, so she can contact me and vice-versa.. and tt nite, i saw her on msn.. and we chatted.. had alot of fun chatting, cos it was reali fun chatting wif such an angel.. then i asked her a reali stupid qn, wad's her surname, and she told me, Gan... brilliant, im A Gan too.. and when things like tt happen, it becomes extra interesting, cos i love pple who share the same surname! they give me something of a closeness, away from home? away from frens, the best thing tt could happen was when u actually found someone whu has the same surname as u.. GAN! yay! so we became reali close and i told her i wanna be her god bro! yay.. and she agreed, and come on, who wun, im such a nice guy and more imptly, i reali treat her super nicely, juz like the way i treated mi real sister.. THEN CAME LEGAL SKILLS practicals, and i was being put in the same grp as her, come on.. i mean it's LIKE DUH.. GAN AND GAN? wad else can it be? i was fortunate, cos she's reali hardworking and all i nd to do was to slack and she will do all e work.. i remembered tt time wen we did our negotiation, she said something wrong and she felt so bad abt it, but to me, i dun care, cos the teacher sux anw.. i mean LIKE SUX REALI BIG TIME.. so seriously, who cares.. HAHA..
and wen we did mooting, tt was the time when we were reali close, we hafta find sources, cases and bla bla bla.. and stupid statutes, end up hafta stay in sch till late, i mean not tt late lah.. but late enuff for me to realise it's time for dinner.. AND WE WERE SO CLOSE.. till.....

Alright, to be perfectly honest, i dunno wad happened either, she refused to tell me anw.. so all i cld do was to simply stay by her and hope things will be beta.. and things did get beta.. but well.. the kind of joy we shared was obviously different.. and time past by reali quickly... suddenly, she got attached to KIAN peng, some guy who i tot was reali nice and perfect for her.. for kian peng, she decided against alot of things, and we distanced.. cos she said tt she shld not flirt that much.. and im like.. HM.. doesnt sound exactly rite.. but.. haha..

Anw, tt's abt it, she's a reali and pretty gal, oways smiling and not letting anithing bring her down,. problem is.. she doesnt noe wad she wants, and i hafta mk sure i let her noe wad she wants.. and things will get alot busier i guess.. BUT ANW.. for now. i hope that she's hapi and yup.. i will owyas rem ur MILO and tt chocs which i cant exactly rem wad brand it was.. haf a brilliant life ahead.. and it's mi pleasure to know such a wonderful person in u...!!!!!!

2008-08-26T17:18:00.001+01:00

This song reminds me of YOU, YOU, YOU!!!!

迎接另一个晨曦带来全新空气
气息改变情味不变茶香飘满情谊

我家大门常打开开放怀抱等你
拥抱过就有了默契你会爱上这里

不管远近都是客人请不用客气
相约好了在一起我们欢迎你

我家种着万年青开放每段传奇
为传统的土壤播种为你留下回忆

陌生熟悉都是客人请不用拘礼
第几次来没关系有太多话题

北京欢迎你为你开天辟地
流动中的魅力充满着朝气
在黄土地刷新成绩

我家大门常打开开怀容纳天地
岁月绽放青春笑容迎接这个日期

天大地大都是朋友请不用客气
画意诗情带笑意只为等待你

北京欢迎你像音乐感动你
让我们都加油去超越自己
北京欢迎你有梦想谁都了不起
有勇气就会有奇迹

北京欢迎你为你开天辟地
流动中的魅力充满着朝气
北京欢迎你在太阳下分享呼吸
在黄土地刷新成绩

北京欢迎你像音乐感动你
让我们都加油去超越自己
北京欢迎你有梦想谁都了不起
有勇气就会有奇迹

我家大门常打开开放怀抱等你
拥抱过就有了默契你会爱上这里

不管远近都是客人请不用客气
相约好了在一起我们欢迎你

北京欢迎你为你开天辟地
流动中的魅力充满着朝气
北京欢迎你在太阳下分享呼吸
在黄土地刷新成绩

我家大门常打开开怀容纳天地
岁月绽放青春笑容迎接这个日期

天大地大都是朋友请不用客气
画意诗情带笑意只为等待你

北京欢迎你像音乐感动你
让我们都加油去超越自己
北京欢迎你有梦想谁都了不起
有勇气就会有奇迹

北京欢迎你为你开天辟地
流动中的魅力充满着朝气
北京欢迎你在太阳下分享呼吸
在黄土地刷新成绩

北京欢迎你像音乐感动你
让我们都加油去超越自己
北京欢迎你有梦想谁都了不起
有勇气就会有奇迹

2008-08-24T02:52:00.002+01:00

This is it? i guess...... it's time to leave le....... Bye Bye!!! it has been brilliant noeing EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!!!!! U GUYS ROCK.....

2008-08-22T15:54:00.005+01:00

OK.. this is for a princess becos she hell behaves LIKE ONE...

I first saw her in a class which i cant rem when.. and she was juz sitting there.. and i decided to sit dwn beside her which she agreed.. and after that we started chatting.. which i tot was quite nice..

I remembered there's this time when i knocked into her accidentally, she told me, "hey, dun kao de na me jing." im like wad? im nt tryin to tk advantage of u u crappy woman.. but after that, i realise she's a v nice fren who cares alot abt pple beside her, and of cos ME... well.. i rem tt time she had a reali bad quarrel wif her bf and ended up on a rough patch, and she called me to talk.. it was the first time i saw her cry, i was reali shocked.. but at the same time, i juz hoped i cld do something to mk her feel beta.. and im reali glad she asked me out to tok.. becos it means tt she cld trust me.. She's a real princess, behaving like one all the time, always ask me do this do that, and if i dun, she will show me this face which is as if im bullying her and owell.. i hafta do wad she ask.. then there's this time when she gt so angry wif me, i was so worried.. and finally we settled the problem and we are back to gd frens! and she's mi bestie over here... Leeds, i will find u there, i promise k?
Btw, there's this stare which is oways scary and there's this time when she was afraid to walk to sch, and got me to tk the bus all e way to the hostel so i cld pick her up from there, do u tink she's one hell of a princess? and she oways refused to haf lunch wif me, wa.. will fat de.. will fat de.. im gonna miss her alot.. tgt wif all my other frens.. and trust me, when u look at her dance, u will luff, becos there's no TWO ways which she can dance, there's onli 1... and tt way is juz moving her stupid body ard.. oh.. she says tt her bf is Prince Williams, which make me wanna say a joke abt the old gentle lady who "chop ink" for a living.. she's reali a gd fren, thou she loves to scold me for nothing, i believe down in heart all she wanted was to care.. she cant show reali well.. but i appreciate it.. juz like how i appreciate everyone who has shown care and concern to me when i am here... Now that im leaving, i juz miss them so much, and it's so sad... cos i din noe i cld mk such gd frens...
And rem Winnie, you wanted to cook for me and clear mi laundry when i am over there at leeds.. so u beta dun forget.. or else u will noe wad's gonna happen to you!! LOL.. tk care and lotsa misses..

2008-08-21T14:37:00.003+01:00

There's this gal, this small little sized gal.. who's reali short and dumb.. ok.. nt dumb.. but truly short... Well, the first time i toked to her, i had the worst introduction to her, she said this, "hey, hwa jiunn, could u help me print the notes fer SI and JP?" and she left.. i am like wow.. do i know her reali well? and the rest was history.... alright.. let's fast fwd shall we???........
Then somehow we became gd frens, became reali gd frens, she's simple, innocent, nice and without airs.. she's the gal u wld tink is hard to find, and she speaks wif such a weird accent.. it's so funny juz to hear her speak.. but you know, there's oways the first time when u hear someone frm msia speak.. they are reali funni when they speak.. but tt's nt the pt.. Oh, did i forget.. she's from PERLIS.. do u spell it like that? i am not entirely sure.. So there was this time when we were juz having fun, and she said, hey, hj, u be mi boyfriend lah.. since i broke up wif amin le (which obviously was juz another joke)..." so i said, of cos of cos... the whole world all my gfs, at tt time of cos we were juz having fun.. and nw, we are still having tt sort of fun... let's fast fwd somemore shall we?
It was 2 days before the final paper, and we were there celebrating her bday, sang K and we were reali high tt nite, btw.. this gal can rap! can u imagine? she can rap!!! rap so well.. omg.. was it tt dumb pan wei bo? ya.. i tink so.. haha.. btw, i can rap too.. but tt's nt the pt.. LOL... we had so much fun tt nite, alan, me, xq,winnie,ashley,addy,and of cos her.. she loves thai food which i din noe too.. LOL.. and she said tt we are finally beginning to understand each other (that day was 2 days before we "break").. HAHA.. i din noe we can act so well.. but ashley can too.. tt is fer another day too..
It was the last day of exams, we finished it with comparable ease.. and wad we studied was useless, to put it at the most mild.. after sch, we decided to watch a movie somewhere.. oh.. nt we, she and the other gal which of cos i will talk another time.. so both of them wanted to watch a movie, and since i am so bored and no one loves me, i decided to tag along.. and we went down to 1U.. Oh, it was the FREE PARKING DAY!... had yoshinoya for lunch, it was nice.. and FUNNI.. she poured the miso soup all over becos she's such a kid.. lol.. and she was so apologetic fer making the guy work.. gosh.. wad's wrong wif her.. LOL.. and i said "
真是不听话，不带你出街了！" and we all laughed.. then came the movie MUMMY.. she cried during a scene, i was shocked.. but actually it was quite touching and i nearly cried too.. but owell.. at nite, i saw her at the BBQ, she looked so down, probably becos everyone's gonna part alr.. and she juz cried towards the end.. i was shocked.. but at the same time, i felt the sadness coming thru me.. din noe it's gonna be like tt.. it was juz suppose to be uni isnt it? why did i fall so deep when it comes to frenship? i realise i haf a soft spot fer frenship... She went off for movie together with other frens, and i went down to club,it was reali boring.. stupid clubbing, hate it.. shouldnt even haf gone.. tiring, boring, and smelly.. SO much wanted to be wif her and the rest of my frens at the cinema, even if it's the dark knight tt i watched b4..
This morning, i sent her off, becos i guess tt's probably gonna be the last time im gonna see her fer a while, and i tink i shld send her off... she was smling when she said bye.. but wad i din noe is that i was feeling sad.. reali sad.. tt's about it... she's a fantastic gal.. with braces.. tt's hw i knew her... I nearly wanted to ask her to be mi godsis.. cos she's such a little gal, juz wanted to protect her... u noe, like a brother.. Did i tell u guys that she's called NG LING HUI??? sorry if i din...

2008-08-19T07:45:00.002+01:00

This is an Entry for my HOLY FATHER..

when i was down, u were my strength.. when i was hiding, u showed me the light and bid me to walk out.. when i was sad, u were there juz to give a crying shoulders.. i could not understand why yet with every love that u have possibly showed me, i am still bound to temptations and sins.. i know i have sinned, and yet with every day coming, i try to change and be a better person that one day may find favour in your eyes.. You gave us your son, and yet we sacrificed him, and that was your plan, ur grand plan, to put OUR sins on HIS blameless body.. This was wad happened, so that i will be forgiven by you whether i sinned yesterday, today or even tomorrow..
I was giving up hope, yet u gave me hope again. I do not know what i have done to deserve such favour from you my LORD.. Maybe in the first place, your love for US has been of too much abundance and you know, when the bible used the word, "jealous love", it was not petty jealousy, it was something far more pure and powerful.. I understood it the moment i sinned and was punished by you O Lord, yet with every punishment, u gave me a chance for redemption..
His blood, washes and sanctifies, Your Love, high and bountiful..
You are My father, My king, My friend, My creator, My God..
You gave me the chance to witness your grandeur,
You gave me the chance to witness your greatness,
You gave me the chance to witness your love,
You gave me the chance to witness your pain,
You gave me the chance to witness your forgiveness,
You gave me the chance to witness your righteousness,
You gave me the chance to witness your grace,
You gave me the chance to witness your majesty,
You gave me the chance to witness my LIFE..
LIFE= living in forever embrace (of GOD)...
GOD= Greatest Ordinary Dad
You live in me... your love will never ever change..
"Forgive us, Lord . . . for the things we have done that make us feel uncomfortable in Your presence. All the front that we polish so carefully for men to see does not decieve You. For you know every thought that has left its shadow on our memory. You have marked every motive that curdled something sweet within us.
We acknowledge--with bitterness and true repentance--that cross and selfish thoughts have entered our minds; we acknowledge that we have permitted our minds to wander through unclean and forbidden ways; we have toyed with that which we knew was not for us; we have desired that which we should not have.
We acknowledge that often we have decieved ourselves where our plain duty lay.
We confess before You that our ears are often deaf to the whisper of Thy call, our eyes often blind to the signs of your guidance,
Make us willing to be changed, even though it requires surgery of the soul and the therapy of disipline.
Make our hearts warm and soft, that we may receive now the blessing of Your forgiveness, the benedicition of Your "Depart in peace . . and sin no more." Amen

2008-08-19T06:58:00.002+01:00

Since mi dearest and onli disciple decides to write something about me, i should not be so evil and not write anithing back to her...
My disciple is one of the nicest gals i haf ever seen, making me believe that there is reali innocence and purity in this world.. It's not like i have not seen good gals in mi life.. but you know, when u see a gal who's reali simple and innocent, u noe you seen one.. not that she's dumb or wadsoever, she's actually quite smart and is a fantastic memorising machine.. HAHA..
She's my mate whenever i needed someone to eat lunch wif me, and along with another irritating person who i will discuss another time.. Anw.. she's someone whu reali dun mind asking till she gets the ansers, and unfortunately, i become the person who gets all the qns that she poses.. not that i mind, but sometimes, u noe? u juz nd to study too.. cos as u guys all know, i linger ard the possibility of being retarded.. so ya..
Also, at the end of this whole thing, she's gonna leave fer england and pursue a new journey of her own, at the end of the day, i wish her all e best fer everything and mayb u noe, i might juz pop by in cardiff if i actually have the chance? LOL.. and u made me realise that apart from mi O.I frens, there are frens that i care about and care for me...
OH.. ur dessert.. it's abit crazy lah.. juz ferget it, reali... and where's mi MAGGI GORENG? haha.. hope u find someone u luv and luvs u to the max.. LOL... rock on cindy.. it's a brilliant honour for me to know you, and not the other way round..
U made mi life different the moment i stepped into Uni, and u made me a better person than wad i was... someone whu can smile and teach and feel great about it... KUDOS.... and all the best fer everything u do in the future.. may ur endeavours be well endowed... and your journey in life.. a brilliant and shining one...
YourS TruLy..
The OnE and OnLI Gan HwA JiuNn

2008-08-09T06:54:00.002+01:00

Hey guys, this will be a really long post.. so if u guys are really not into reading stuff which is long and boring.. then there's a summary at the end of the whole thing.. Here it goes...

It really ticks it's time away, a rather silly clock.. but it has to be that way isnt it? there aint ani other way to make it work, then again, even if there's a possibility to make it stop, it's not like the earth has stop revolving around the sun rite? Aug 9? i have been on a piece of foreign land fer 8 months, not that i regretted it.. but it aint that much of an experience.. Friends i made, yet those who i cld bear my heart out, i found none.. I miss the people who i really care for.. you know who u guys are rite? and of cos that special someone, but i hate to say who.. cos it mks everything looks rather normal.. aint it so?

I tried so hard to read law and love it, yet it just isnt that simple as i thought, and not as wonderful as i thought it wld be.. 2 days frm now and i shall be sitting in front of a table and making sure i know what the teachers have been talking since the start of the year.. they dun make sense, but i have to make sense out of the rubbish that they said..

GOD.. i have failed him so many times, and yet everytime he forced me to stand up and move nearer towards him, i have fulfilled my promise to him, yet it is now time to fulfil another promise of mine towards him.. I know he will lead me, but how far, Lord, i am scared when i wandered out of ur sight.. i am afraid when things are not in control, i am afraid when u are no longer angry wif me, i am afraid when i become just another creation of urs... yet i am most afraid when i could no longer love you, no matter hw much you would love me, becos of my shame, becos of my desire in worldly ideas rather than submit to your greater plan...

Back to singapore soon, i din realise that time flew by.. i din noe that hardworking has never appeared in my dictionary, i din noe that i am not smart, i din noe that i got pple falling for me when all i did was to chat, i din noe that words are venom, i din noe that i could not do enough, i din noe that if i wake up dead tomorrow, no one will remember me, i din noe that i could try harder, and most importantly, i din noe that there are so many that love me for who i am, embracing my faults juz like how they embraced my smile.. I hate flying, it has become a part of me soon, when flying wld be the only thing that i would look forward to.. i hate departures, and i love arrivals.. i love the day when my brother is back from new zealand, i like the way we chatted about juz anithing and everything..

I noe that my family is impt, i noe that mi studies is priority, i noe that U are precious, and i noe that my frens are nice, what i do not know is what i know enough? i duno..

There is this time when i had a dream, i dreamt of the beautiful things in life, the smiles, the laughter, the irritating sounds that my frens make which i oways tot was music.. then i woke up, back to this cold reality, i tried to fall aslp again, but before i know, i was awaken by the stupid clock, signalling to me that it's time to pack my bag and leave for school.. I remembered that morning was cold, cos it rained so heavily the nite before, and i remembered the times when i enjoyed school, cos THEY were there..

Then things became abit harsh, reality became cruel.. and the rest.. it became history.. I don't want to be someone powerful, special.. i juz wan to be someone that another someone will probably remember and smile when that someone thinks of me..

I just wan to be someone that My O.I remembers me when im away..

I just wan to be someone that my family will be proud of..

I just wan to be someone that takes my matters seriously..

I just wan to be someone that can enjoy love..

I just wan to be someone that can enjoy god's affection..

I just wan to be someone that can stand up after falling..

I just wan to be Myself....

I shut it....

Summary:

This is my life, and if you cant even be bothered abt reading then why care?

2008-08-03T07:36:00.000+01:00

Alright, i am reali going back.. i shall return on the 25th of sept.. alright? i shall return then and then.. and i wil b nice to everyone whu decide to meet me, i will buy every single one of u guys 1 prata! alright.. i nd to get back to studying.. I ND TO STUDY.. thou im quite confident, i am quite scared.. i am so scared tt in the end, i will forget everything.. but i wun.. jiayou lO!

2008-06-07T14:32:00.002+01:00

An excerpt of the emo boy TAN YOU CAI...

¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
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¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
what emo boy
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
haha
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
chill lah..
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
4 more days nia..
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
WA LAO..
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
bugger
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
.....
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
damn sian leh
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
no drive to study la
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
haha
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
then relax first lah
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
fucking ytd drank sakae
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
lol
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
drank sakae?
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
then?
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
gt high nt?
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
no la
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
abit only
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
chey..
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
tt nite i went clubbing..
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
fucking 2 bottles of whiskey..
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
shit
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
yalayala
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
lawyers all fucking drinkers la
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
too cheap to buy a glass of drinks
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
prefer to drink from bottles
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
cos it's cool for lawyers
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
.....
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
wad's wrong wif u...
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
wanna pick fight ahz?
HwA JiUnN-life is spelt L.I.F.E, Living.It.Foolishly.Entertaining says:
LOL
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
lol
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
sian la
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
exams
¥õµ ÇÅï line 1, 3, 4 on deck. ship's holding one 2! says:
fuck

2008-06-07T09:03:00.002+01:00

at 6pm- this fucking bunch of africans made noise.. alright.. they claimed that it was because a guy was having his birthday..
at 9pm- they made noise again, i decided to shut up and let them make noise.. becos it wasn't that loud..
at 12am- they started becoming noisy again, and this time the level of noise was getting really high. i told them for the first time that i am trying to slp..
at 2am- they are still making noise, and this time even louder, im going crazy.. i went over and ask them politely cld they kp it low.. but by now, they are drunk and they are smoking, like a bunch of barbaric animals..
at 4am- they did not stop.. becos they tot they were the onli ones in the whole building, so i got pissed and i decided to tell them if they are not gonna shut it, im going to the security..
at 6am- they still did not stop, i gave them the ultimatum, I AM GOING DWN.. and one of them said, U BETA GET OUT OF HERE BECOS I WILL CLAP? haha.. btw, clap is supposed to be their language, means he's gonna be pissed and most prob gonna wack me up? wack me up? and get their student visas all cancelled.. they tot they are in africa.. they are not.. they nd to noe tt..

SO WELL.. im awake till 6.30am.. and my day ahead is practically screwed.. does anyone pity me? and my ears?

2008-06-06T17:57:00.002+01:00

HUI LAI BA...

it's nothing magical really.. juz a bunch of fantastic brothers..

2008-06-05T02:53:00.003+01:00

Mugging seems a pastime now, with me not studying becoming the atypical rather than the norm.. Alright.. let's put it aside and start with something light shall we?

Alright,
1)PP got her second upper honours and she's hapi abt it, but as i said, i predicted it.. she deserves better probably.. but this is gd enuff for her by her.. let's all pray she will do reali well for work and earn lotsa of money FOR ME.. love you!(NTU)
2)Superfriend is grouchy because the holidays are not going as well as what she has intended. but be happy k?? cos i hate to see my superfriend having problems!! smile and wake up to a brighter day!!(NUS)
3)Ker Wei juz faced a slight problem in his exams and is not doing so well with the sudden plunge of confidence. kw, jiayou lo.. i noe you will do so well so well and enjoy ur days in australia with jac together with coming back to singapore(UNIVERSITY OF MELBOURNE)
4)Teck Wee as usual, just short of crazy has completed his marathon in 5 hrs 23 mins! all bow to the speed demon. i Juz miss this idiot, i love him for his crap and hm.. crap!!!(SMU)
5) Kok Hong has special plans for his university Life as he seems to be wanting to do another part time degree apart from the one that he will undertake in NUS. the most mature of the lot i guess. haha but we are all catching up and he's dwindling i suppose..(NUS)
6) You Cai is facing a slight problem with a problem that used to be a blessing, Math.. and he's having exams today at whichever UK time that might be.. not that im nt familiar with the time over there, im absolutely gd at it, with 3 clocks, no one won't be.. GOoD luCK Bro!!(IMPERIAL COLLEGE OF LONDON)
7) Chee kean is enjoying his new hobby in Photography with those delighted pictures that he has taken and apart from that, he seems to forget that there is simply something more important to do, MISS ME... this is good practice for architecture i guess..(NUS)
8) Desmond is filling in an application to do a course in Tourism starting maybe next year and im so glad he found something that he likes, after spending half his life not really sure what his interest is.. Jiayou lo Desmond!!!(HE HAS NOT TELL ME YET)
9)Jac is going to fly to australia in a couple of days and you see, though i love the thought of it as it means that kw is flying back soon, the thought of exams closing in gives me the creeps.. Enjoy lo fellow member of da tou society!(NUS)
10)Alvin is probably rotting in his camp again and waiting for his NS to finish, come on Alvin, when u see me on msn, tok to me.. though i am offline, most of the time i am not! and to be honest, ur the cutest living thing, whether u like it or not!(NS)
11) Rahul is probably talking some rubbish again in his presentation that is coming up with the assumedly american accent and trying really hard to assume the title of Dr, but nonetheless has the audacity to remind me of our crazy past! good luck my favourite black!!(UNSW)
12) jiang Min got a scholarship for her NTU studies, how great is that? that is absolutely fantastic.. and you see, i forgotten all about adding her as one of the most important pple and i gt scolded by her.. no wonder i was really thinking did i miss someone out.. oh well.. anw, congrats and to mani great years in NTU.. ntu rite?(NTU)

This are the bunch of idiots that meant the world to me, and which i truly care about, not that i dun care abt the others, but these people are my priority. OH, and of cos my family.. but they are kinda mundane.. so well.. well..pretty smart frens i have huh?

2008-05-31T15:24:00.001+01:00

[10:13:39 PM] tongkerwei says: lol
[10:13:40 PM] Tan You Cai says: bitch
[10:13:45 PM] tongkerwei says: i needa bathe
[10:13:47 PM] *** Tan You Cai has changed the chat topic to "Double-click here to set chat topic"
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[10:13:51 PM] tongkerwei says: brb
[10:13:52 PM] Gan Hwa Jiunn says: lol mi lam pa l;ah
[10:14:00 PM] Tan You Cai says: bathe what bathe
[10:14:02 PM] Gan Hwa Jiunn says: haha
[10:14:12 PM] Gan Hwa Jiunn says: wash wad wash..

[10:57:42 PM] tongkerwei says: 2 flaming

[10:58:16 PM] Tan You Cai says: i know

[10:58:25 PM] tongkerwei says: haha, set man, cant wait

[10:58:26 PM] Tan You Cai says: the person buying that round will get 2

[10:58:27 PM] tongkerwei says: ta ma de

[10:58:34 PM] Tan You Cai says: wah likely to get pissed man lol

[10:58:39 PM] tongkerwei says: 2?

[10:58:41 PM] tongkerwei says: siao

[10:58:41 PM] Tan You Cai says: like

[10:58:45 PM] Tan You Cai says: cos 1 for 1 what

[10:58:47 PM] tongkerwei says: the one buy 2 graveyard sure die

[10:58:48 PM] Tan You Cai says: idiot

[10:58:52 PM] Tan You Cai says: LOL

[10:58:52 PM] tongkerwei says: tht s u leh

[10:58:53 PM] tongkerwei says: ok

[10:58:53 PM] Tan You Cai says: which is u

[10:58:54 PM] tongkerwei says: set

[10:58:57 PM] tongkerwei says: u the one buyign me graveyard wht

[10:58:58 PM] Tan You Cai says: oh fuck

[10:59:05 PM] Tan You Cai says: oh yah

[10:59:08 PM] Tan You Cai says: i realised

[10:59:09 PM] Tan You Cai says: cannot

[10:59:10 PM] Tan You Cai says: knn

[10:59:20 PM] tongkerwei says: ok!

[10:59:21 PM] tongkerwei says: can can

[10:59:22 PM] Tan You Cai says: we need to find one more person

[10:59:22 PM] Tan You Cai says: tw

simplicity is bless isnt it?

2008-05-26T14:57:00.001+01:00

IM GONNA FCUK SOMEONE UP REALI BADLY.. LIKE REALI FCUK TT PERSON UP...
u see, there's a threshold to everything, similiarly, there's a limit to mi tolerance.. and tt sl*t is gonna get it reali badly..
well.. in mi world, there is something called if u aint gonna disturb me, i will do the same to u.. but apparently one too mani times has she decided to fcuk me up when im trying to be nice.. so wad im gonan do is to do the same back to her..
and oh.. being like a lil pussy wun help much either.. PLS.. for godsake, let me see her in CLUB.. pls.. let me see her in club.. so tt i can do something to her.. PLS PLS.. tt's the place where i can give her a piece of mi mind without having too much trouble....
u see, in law, there's oways mens rea and actus reus..
God gave me patience, but he put a limit to it, and nw tt fcuking Sl*t has crossed it, she's dead...
pardon mi english.. it wasnt well written, i promise a better entry next time..
such contrasting entries... some pple can mk me kill them, while others, they juz mk me willing to die for them... fcuking hell..

2008-05-26T04:15:00.002+01:00

this is for everyone in mi family.. u see, there aint a nd to put a name there, cos u hafta add everyone's name.. HAHA.. and every fren of mine who's there for me.. and def my dawn dawn.. JUZ put ur name in there if in the past all u did was show luv fer this ass like me..

____ used to be my only enemy and never let me free,

Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be, Every other day I crossed the line,

I didn't mean to be so bad,I never thought you would Become the friend I never had

Back then I didn't know why, Why you were misunderstood,

So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love,

____ I love you, ____ I care,____ I love you,

____ my friend,My friend

I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now,

Every little thing you said and did was right for me,I had a lot of time to think about,

About the way I used to be,

Never had a sense of my responsibility. Back then I didn't know why,Why you were

misunderstood,So now I see through your eyes,

All that you did was love,

2008-05-25T15:39:00.002+01:00

Exeter, Liverpool>?? oh well.. tt's not mi most important thing.. Granddad's birthday, the kind of sadness and loneliness when i had to leave.. LOL.. i mean it was reali brilliant.. din get to see so mani pple, but all of them turned up and things were reali gd.. LOL.. and after a while, when mi younger brother said, hey, dun leave lah.. leave at 9.. tt was the time i felt something.. something reali nice and warm.. mi bro is kinda cold and cool.. tt's the thing i felt reali gd.. and i saw mi sis, dad and mum.. after so long.. GOSH.. tt's was reali nice.. had this feeling like back home again... owell.. gonna study reali hard again.. nt gonna let mi mum, dad and everyone tt believed in me..
JIAYOU LO!..
AND I LUV MI FAMILY.. I REALI LUV EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.. AND MI NEW OLYMPUS CAMERA... SAY CHEESE....

2008-05-15T06:21:00.002+01:00

Yay, mi dearest jo is back in town, alright, which juz means nw im gonna tok to her and miss her even more.. oh gosh.. anw.. i juz finished 4 hrs of studying.. and the results of this? noeing slightly more abt remedies of misrep and cases on judicial review.. haha.. owell.. but it's a gd start.. 3 more hrs tdy. to cover those missed out yest.. hm.. and tt wld slightly mk up i guess.. then tmr gonna try to study as much, or else it wld nvr be near to cover the sat and sun and mon where im gonna be most prob slacking.. owell.. ok.. tt's abt it.. nw i shall return to where i belong, get changed, wash up and u noe wad? be reali rdy to go sch.. HAHA.. owell.. feels great mugging.. nw i noe mugging can actually be fun!!! oh gosh.. can u believe it? haha.. juz glad jo is back.. now awaiting mi princess....

2008-05-15T03:46:00.002+01:00

Hi guys, im here again to whine about mi pathetic life.. u SEE.. the person i care most before kw and jo is away in thailand relaxing and having fun while im all here trying to get mi act altgt.. this sux.. and it reali sux.. but then i came across this little entry which is hauntingly familiar.. i wonder if it's about me or is it nt abt me.. but owell..
here it goes( if that was about me)
I have reali moved on and seeing u hapi nw mks me hapi.. haha.. happily being wif another person who has given her all fer this r/s, of cos wif the exceptions of being angry and silly at times, forms to be the total perfect gal tt im looking for.. Then came mi studies in law, this brilliant subject that requires the brilliant brain to handle it, as u all noe, i dun reali haf a clue abt being brilliant, so all i hafta do is to be dilligent, since the other part is given before hand when god was moulding me into existence.. and i MISS SO MANI PPLE, DAWN, KW, JO, TW, KH, CK, YC, JAC, ALVIN.. gosh.. so mani pple.. those pple in amoy quee.. haha.. well.. i miss hell alot of pple.. reali want to see kw reali soon, haven seen him in ages.. and mi dearest rahul who has been mi harshest critic and best fren in those days of the pathetic amoy quee.. u see... this is wad i do nw, and there aint ani mentioning of u.. hm.. but to be honest, of cos there are the occasional misses and wondering hw are u doing, but honestly.. it has been 3 yrs? hm... i guess so.. it's alot of time to put right alot of mistakes..
Here it goes(if that wasn't about me)
The former paragraph is to let mi dear bros and shitty jo noe all abt me, and oh.. 89 days.. SHIT.. even the 9 is gone..

2008-05-13T03:15:00.002+01:00

Omg, im having imnsomia, gosh.. and i cant do anithing to help it.. someone save me.. PLS.. fer god's sake,save me.. pls.. OMG.. i nd help.. to solve this problem..
and 90 more days to mi exams.. and i haven reali start preparing.. was doing reali well.. then suddenly broke dwn.. engine nds repairing.. reali.. gosh.. gear 6... v12 engine gonna start all over again le.. rock on... i noe i can because i believe i can..

2008-05-09T17:57:00.001+01:00

hapi birthday to my dearest KOR.. Mr Gan Hwa Perng.. hm... alright.. tt's abt it. JUST HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BIGGEST KOR AND THE ONLI ONE I WAN FOR MI ENTIRE LIFE..
see ya soon bro..

2008-05-09T17:36:00.002+01:00

今晚过得特别漫长，是我乱了思绪吗？我也不知，简简单单过一身。有那么难吗？我也不晓得。可能吧。我不再哭泣了。是不是眼泪都不听话了？可能吧。说实在的，我真的不知道

Simply put into english which everyone seems more comfortable with, i really don't know what i can do to pull thru tonight..

2008-05-08T05:07:00.003+01:00

I dreamt of jac yest, simple dream.. juz me and her chatting, after a reali long while after being cold to each other.. and i once asked God, can we be gd frens again? He seemed to be reali bz fer a while.. Din reply to my msg or calls.. so i decided to leave it there.. as it is.. cos i reali dun haf a clue to what i reali wanted..
Then yest afternoon, i was at the law lecture, and i learnt something abt Audi Alterum Partum, listen to both sides of the story.. and at nite, i dreamt of her..
I learnt that there's juz aint anithing as enemy wif someone so close b4.. But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil. Be ye therefore merciful, as your Father also is merciful. Luke 6:35-36
I read this today.. i learnt to forgive miself and everyone ard me.. fer the hurt and discomfort they caused me.. haha.. but then again, it's yet another word of god to tell me, boy, it's time to look in front and stop turning back..
95 days... SAVE ME....

2008-05-07T04:04:00.002+01:00

Alright, let's look at some empirical data shall we? In 96 days time, i shall tackle my first paper, which is legal methods and systems.. let's break down the numbers we have.. 96 days would be 2304 hours, 138240 minutes, and 8294400 seconds.. this is the time im left b4 my final verdict is given. Obviously, there wun be any quashing of the conviction, which means i cant go back to where i started.. so it is left with dimissal and undoubtedly allowed..
Alright, let's look at other statistics that i have.. i have read more than 20 cases out of the 100 cases which i have to understand.. read 4 statutes out of the few thousand statutes that would be required.. and i have reali understood 5 chapters out of the 20 that i need to prepare for my exams.. multiply it by the amount of words that one would expect from law books, i have definitely as much words to complete within those minutes that i have. which means that 138 thousand plus is completely not a huge number. Minus those hours of slping which i am trying drastically to cut down, i have lil less than 1536 hours of studying time. Divide those numbers by 5, and hurray, u would see that i have 300 hours for each of the subjects..
Let's see, apart from all these, the usual 15 minutes of distraction would amount to 4500 minutes of wastage in precious studying..
Take it that 100 marks for absolute concentration, i have 85 marks to fight for.. And out of this 85 marks, lack of complete knowledge and perfect understanding, i have 15 marks to deduct, so let's see.. how would reaching the finishing line feel... see ya ard guys...

2008-05-05T13:34:00.002+01:00

This time i had it right i guess... It's him isnt it? I pulled the trigger, and the next moment, i saw him fell before my very eyes.. he's dead.. or i thought.. he stood up.. said i miss him by the breath of the hair, and walked away silently.. He told me, if i were to kill him, there has to be effort put in, he's not gonna die like tt.. he's alr part of me, even if i wanted to kill him, there is unwillingness.
I looked at him, he told me, it's ok, u can oways try again, but i can't let him down animore, i nd to kill him.. He's a threat, a menace, and a part of me which i have to kill..
Tomorrow, im gonna try again, but maybe i won't succeed, but i will definitely try. He will be dead someday i guess.. Maybe not soon, but someday. When tt day comes, then it's my lucky day.
I looked at the smiling face, biding me farewell.. I took my gun, and left that place.. i saw the blood traces, he should be wounded by now.. I will kill him really soon. But i have to really do it soon, before it's time for me to die..
He stood there smiling, and telling me there's always a tomorrow, but i know i can't wait.. especially when his pardon seems to give me the ticket to take it for granted..
I have to kill him, i have to.. and till that day come, i guess i am always hunting for the next dawn, and griefing for the coming dusk..

2008-05-03T08:05:00.001+01:00

Im all single again, and mayb i could just live lytt.. thanks fer everything, we tried our best din we.. thou our future is no longer existent.. mayb one day, we could still be frens.. im quite sure abt it.. take care and all e best in KPMG lo..

2008-04-22T07:14:00.003+01:00

他说：

一个人走着，渐渐累了，走不远了。

离别时不是定下约定了吗？

前方带着无尽的茫然，后旁拉着永远的不舍。

我错了吗？人说“男人泪，不轻弹”

可知如此之痛，早已到伤心处。

天逆我行，我逆道而跃。

不到结尾非好汉。

天地之大，总有我容身之处。

大志不亡，可日后一统天下定江山。

离别之痛，何足为惜。

男人志，无为惧也

2008-04-06T15:55:00.002+01:00

i stood on the cliff, i jumped off it..
i was left crippled...
i was rendered useless..
i pushed myself out of redundancy..
the motivation seems gone..
i changed my mind...
and all i could see now is vague..
all i cannot see is all i could see...
which is what i have never experienced in my life before till now..
NOthing....

2008-04-03T17:17:00.002+01:00

tonight, it seems rather quiet... seems rather silent.. flu quietly crept up my body and launch a sudden attack on my immune system.. tt's the thing wif surprise attacks, the body juz cant tk it and fall apart.. im sick...
when ur sick, u tink of 3 grps of pple, family, frens, gf..
unfortunately.. none of them are ard....
family- fell aslp..
gf- nt ard...
frens- drift into oblivion...
but there's TW.. haha.. well..
JUZ WAN THE WHOLE WORLD TO NOE.. when hj sneezes, O.I catches a flu..
bad bad... juz finished mi submissions.. hope my partner who im nt sure wad he's doing will get the bundle of authorities done.. owell.. dun wnana tink abt so much le lah.. gt abit pissed wif him.. late, unproductive.. and plus plus plus...
alright.. till nxt time...

2008-04-02T12:38:00.002+01:00

i did mi contract law time test today.. wow.. such a wonderful experience.. cos i juz knew wad i dunno.. and wad i knew is less than half of wad i dunno.. YAY!!! fail.. haha.. but it's ok.. apparently the teacher allowed the class to haf an open book test.. and all i did was to nt refer to the text and do it on mi own, i mean..it aint counted.. so why bother opening up the book.. isnt it much beta if u cld juz use ur brains and reflect on wad's possibly the answer? haha..
mi frens tot i was gd.. cos i wrote alot.. but well.. i tell u.. it aint alot.. it's TOO MUCH.. nt sensical thou.. nonsense.. SO yup.. i tink it's quite cool.. im quite alright wif it..
Oh no.. does anione noe the date tdy? it's the second of april.. so wad happens on a day lytt? it juz means mi assignment is due in less than 9 days.. and wad does tt mean? it juz means tt im SCREWED..
last min work shld be fine i guess.. i mean look at the cute little chiwawa.. he did alright.. so it shldnt be tt bad i suppose..
alright.. gotta bath and start studying.. there's nothing like studying.. it's the best.. NICEST THING U CAN EVER DO.. tk care guys.. till nxt time..

2008-03-31T10:25:00.002+01:00

i juz remembered vividly.. there was a bunch of frens who are always free.. nt becos they are free, but becos they chose to free up time for me.. then there's another bunch of frens, who may be free once in a while, while nt being free at ALL OTHER TIMES.. i LOVE U GOH BROTHERS AND MI DEAREST JO.. thanks so much fer making me feel tt im back to where i belong..somewhere where i smile and feel loved.. i reali do.. thanks alot.. it means alot to be back frm somewhere foreign and be back in the laughter and smiles of pple whu im so accustomed to..

Jo was there, juz as pretty as ever, finding time thou there was none for her... bz gal as oways.. but insisting to meet up and demanding time frm me.. which i gratefully gave.. i love u jo..

Tw was there, juz as crappy as ever, found time to rush dwn frm tuition juz to meet me up.. oways there when u nd him.. ever dependable.. but reali stupid and idiotic at other times.. i love u tw..

Kh was there, juz as funny as ever, left his uni applications and came dwn.. told me tt im more impt than his uni applications.. honestly, i was touched.. weighing and balancing stuff like nvr b4.. brilliant.. i love u kh..

Fei Cui... TCC....

Dawn was there, different kind of feeling altgt.. oways feel gd seeing mi gf/wife.. love her so much.. ferever being understanding and nice.. thou like to pout mouth.. but it juz mks me love her more.. was sad when i hafta leave.. but nonetheless.. all the little things tt we did.. baby.. it was nice rite? and darling.. the doughnut is awesome.. hee.. i LOVE YOU BABY DAWN.. hee...

Esplanade......

to dawn,
thanks dearie, ur oways here when i nd u, ur oways smiling when things are bad so tt i wun feel sad and affected.. those little places that i went wif u.. it meant the WORLD.. i love u..

to kw,yc,rahul,
SEE YA GUYS REALI SOON.. COS I MISS U GUYS ALOT AND WILL SPARE UP TIME EVEN IF IT MEANS TO SACRIFICE OTHER THINGS IN THE PROCESS.. COS U GUYS ARE WORTH IT..

to jo,kh,tw,
u dunno hw much u made me smile.. u dunno hw much u mk me feel in bliss, u nvr knew tt u left a tear in mi eye when u guys said bye to me..

i REST MY peace...

2008-03-23T12:49:00.002Z

i left so much behind.. crying underneath the blanket seems the norm rather than the atypical.. i realise i love her so much, and i simply cant let things go juz like tt.. as if things seem ez when things are lytt.. but apparently it juz aint gonna work tt way.. and well.. im juz gonna try harder to kp someone tt means the world to me!
anw,im on my way back to spore le.. to meet mi beloved.. ALL OF THEM.. JOANNA, TW, KH, DES, CK, SW AND NT FORGETTING MI SEXY LITTLE ALVIN WHO I REALI MISS LIKE CRAZY...
i will learn to cherish things beta.. cos mi fren is rite.. things doesnt come twice in life.. it comes once and u gotta cherish it.. yup..
tt's abt it.. and i juz finished mi contract law assignment.. was abit last min work, but hopefully i can get at least 15 out of 20 fer it.. GOOD LUCK TO ME AND BLINDNESS FOR MI TEACHER.. alright...
cya guys soon.. i will be back..

2008-03-16T13:58:00.002Z

god is mighty, sincere, selfless, cool, fatherly, and he's mi god.. once i asked, is there reali a god? i got a solemn answer..
there is one, and he's the reason y u are hapi, smiling..
he's the one that created everything in this world..
if there was one word which u could use on god, what will u use?
i will use godly....
let's pray...
let's welcome him to our lives..
thank you lord...

2008-03-12T14:43:00.002Z

baby..baby..baby..baby... that was the stupid song that mi dawn sang today.. but it sounds good, and brightens up mi night.. thou i dun reali like mi nite to be so bright.. haha..
hey dudes, tell me wad shld i do.. shld i be selfish or continue to haf tt heck care attitude..
this is my problem.. listen carefully...
I HAVE FRENS WHO LIKE TO TK NOTES FRM ME...
nt that i have ani problems with that.. but it became much more frequent than what i expected.. what shld i do? im facing a dilemma.. i dun wish to be an asshole.. but neither do i wish to entertain sloth.. u get wad i mean rite? i spent the whole time finding resources that are useful, and within seconds, all these resources became public knowledge, even those that are private to me and not taught by the lecturers.. OH MAN.. is this the SPOREAN syndrome? gosh.. dudes and DEARIE alike, pls tell me wad to do k? im reali feeling shitty.. and im gonna go visit mi granny's grave on sat.. suddenly, i feel sad.. why wasnt i close to her then.. why din i spend more time wif her.. it seems so distant nw.. that she is somewhere so far.. i dreamt of her that nite.. was it pure coincidence.. or was it because she wanted to tok to her grandchild one last time.. i wish she would appear in mi dreams more often, i dun feel scared somehow.. but calm wif a tinge of sadness.. there is so much more to life than just money, status, fame and shit hell of respect.. i noe wad i shld do.. i bet everyone noes what they shld do.. good NITE...

2008-03-11T12:11:00.002Z

Recipe of PRATA:
1. get flour
2. get water
3. get a frying pan
4. get an indian
5. get that indian to toss the mixture of flour and water
6. get that same indian to put it on a frying pan and fry it
7. get another kind indian to put it on ur plate
8. there u go. prata!
Mi life is getting funnier by the day.. i went to school today. and people around me are getting their results.. HAHA.. results? can u imagine? something i gt 3 yrs ago.. looking at all those reali scared faces, i feel like laughing.. no sense of sympathy huh? owell.. wad can i do? hafta enjoy the moment rite? oh man.. juz came back from badminton.. DUDES, Rem badminton? those days in sec, wen we are so crazy over badminton.. it's fun aint it so? and jo.. despite breaking her hand by breaking a window continued playing.. oh man.. and tt super mighty tong.. ferever hitting the shuttle beyond reach.. now it seems so distant.. to even get ard and see everyone.. luffing AT each other.. and dearie, are we gonna play badminton soon? sobx.. u muz go learn hw to play k? cos nxt time, i wun be so easy on u le.. LOL.. and i decided nt to wash clothes today, cos the weather aint tt gd.. so decide to rest fer one day.. feels like a maid, washing clothes, sweeping floor.. AHz!!!! can someone burn mi notes for me? i promise i will drink the remnants that u will be putting into the water after u burn them.. oh.. DUDES.. whu's up fer mambo???? when i go back of cos.. haha.. rock town babies.. those kids here are so wannabe, pls.. wif mi mambo mates to be put into comparison, those kids can ride their own asses home man...

2008-03-10T14:17:00.004Z

i dun haf so mani pictures like wad kw has, cos i dun like to tk pictures, and seriously.. there aint much fer me to tk as well.. but owell.. mi life is boring.. it's juz books and more books.. HAHA.. nothing much apart frm tt.. and hm... u noe when u miss home.. haha.. u juz like to link things to other things and mk it feel like as if ur in spore.. i went over to the city.. far away frm damansara.. but felt nothing like spore.. pple walking ard.. mking it look reali bz.. but apart frm tt? there aint anithing else to mk it look worthwhile.. school work gonna pile up unless i start doing every single shit.. and life juz aint fun without u.. and U GUYS... alright.. pray fer me guys.. i nd it alot... U NOE WAD.. i nd to hand up mi assignment which is due soon, but right at this moment, im falling ill.. SHIT.. alright.. it's time fer me to once again retire.. HAHA..

2008-03-04T12:42:00.001Z

2 months into LAW... hm.. interesting.. hw do i find it? i tink it's reali a far cry from wad i did in the past.. u noe? it's interesting noeing things can be put into such different perspectives.. i used to tink wad's there to study so much fer something so dead.. but haha.. it aint dead... cos wad we are learning are case law.. statutes.. doesnt stand fer much.. feel like slping le.. v tired... futsal can be reali tiring.. and food here sux.. haha.. i love spore.. i love chicken rice.. and i miss mambo.. chicken rice here is crap.. HAHA.. so near yet so lousy... alright.. tt's abt it.. im reali tired man.. gotta study alot starting frm nxt week... aparently, i let dwn abit this week.. nd to charge up mi gear again.. cant afford to let this dream slip away again can i? nitez guys..

2008-02-20T13:09:00.006Z

isnt she cute? hm.. sorry.. abit zi high.. lol.. but isnt my precious princess cute?? the nice little things she did fer me.. check them all out.. it's beautiful.. and i AM MISSING MI DAWN SO MUCH...

jesse mccartney, "Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help. Because you live, girl! My world has twice as many stars in the sky..... I'm so glad I found an angel, Someone Who was there when all my hopes fell,I wanna fly looking in your eyes!"

that's exactly hw i felt when you came into mi heart.. remember this k? YOUR MI ANGEL..

2008-02-20T12:53:00.004Z

i miss her.. i miss her.. u noe when i saw kw's blog.. abt him missing jac, i realise i miss mi PP super lots.. ahz.. PP.. can u come find me.. i miss u so much.. and u nvr leave a tag.. i dun like u.. reali dun like u lah.. i love the way u smile, the way u pout ur mouth.. and most imptly, the way u say u love me... i love u DAWN CHOONG.. and we will pull it through.. u promised de.. no taking it back!

2008-02-14T09:20:00.002Z

Here we are again, aint we? it's valentines' day all over again? in a faraway land.. across the pathetic seas, im all alone trying to kp awake while studying the rule of law by dicey.. who the hell is dicey anw? hm.... doesnt anione care at all?? doesnt anione care at all? oh gosh.. hw uninformative.. but honestly, i cant care more too.. i just wan tt someone to be here tonight. tt someone whu means the world the moment she said im rdy for this r/s..
hm... where are you.. why cant i see u.. why cant i find u.. why? hm.... alright.. tt's abt it.. hapi v day pple.. tonight is a beautiful nite fer all those whu are in love, pathetic fer those whu are out of love.. but hey.. buck up u losers, u may find ur love tonight.. juz like hw i found mine.. was a loser, nw a winner.. u mk me a winner.. u mk me someone different.. muz i tell u hw much more u mean??

2008-01-31T15:05:00.000Z

As the sun sets for the day, the moon takes over it's duty. Loneliness sets in, tears fell, slowly yet steadily. Did you hear the misses that i asked the wind to convey to you? Guess u didn't, or else i would have heard something of the same context. I cant imagine a day without you, yet i have to endure days without you. A road of peril, a road of impediment, yet u decide to walk it with me. How can i thank you further? How can i show you how much i love you, apart from treating you the best way i can. The past remains the past, what matters is today and subsequently tmr, yet i brought u tears with umpteen mentions of the past. Forgive me, for i mean no malice, i meant no harm. Like a poignant chapter of one's life, i endured that from the unintended intentions of you. Please forgive my unforgiving, understand my inability to understand. I used to say, cherish came as a form of an action, a deliberate act to induce further recognition of one's importance. Now i say it in a much simpler form, Cherish is the due respect that you deserve. Love is giving, love is understanding, love is mighty, love is boundless. And more importantly, Love IS SPELT DAWN...

P.S: judge not he who not know love yet fully, love him duly, and one day shall enlightenment be observed from the usual oblivion..

2008-01-15T05:19:00.001Z

more than a week past since i left home.. felt the loneliness.. felt the icy cold reality i have been thrown in.. different terms.. interesting ones ran me dwn.. ha.. hope everyone in spore is doing reali well.. miss them so much.. then there's oways dawn.. someone whu i love dearly.. wondering if she's reali doing well... coping life without her is ntt tt ez.. it's reali quite tough.. but i will try to cope wif it till im back by her side.. a ring frm her.. a promise frm her.. a simple commitment frm me... i will return wif gd class honours.. i promise...

2007-11-21T16:01:00.001Z

it has been a while since i blogged hasnt it? a life well lived is a gift to god, a life of sins, god abhor, i consistently seek his forgiveness... yet, hw can i take advantage of his goodness and live a life of sins.. lord, save me.. save this world frm abomination. it's tiring at times, but lord, all the temptations, deliver me frm them.. i beg u lord.. i beg u...

2007-10-18T14:17:00.001+01:00

i let god choose what fate i am to face. i let god choose what love i should have. i let god choose what tribulations i have to go through. i surrender my life to god..

2007-10-18T05:43:00.001+01:00

if trying is good enough, then why did i fail?