Friday, September 22, 2006
This's the worst day i haf ever encountered..i haf been swarmed wif so much bullshit..and i haf to do so mani things..im going mad..reali mad..i juz hope i wun turn nuts b4 anithing..becos there's so mani things and i cant settle so mani things all by miself..and i juz dun wanna go wallaby..but mi mum wants me there,so is mi MO..mayb things juz aint helping considering the fact tt mani pple in mi medical centre seems rather hapi juz staying ard..mayb it's mi fault..lotsa things r mi fault..but is it mi fault tt i dun wish to go where im supposed to..to please pple when i cant... haiz..im tired..everytime i tell pple..pple will juz tell me to hang on there..but dun they understand i cant hang on ferever..mayb i was too spoilt a child when mi family juz treat me so nicely..like a child..covering me fer so mani things..covering all mi shit..but nw..it's so diff..it's so diff..im on mi own dudes..im on mi own..and im scared i cant tk it..i reali am scared..whu's there to help me..i dunno whu..i reali dun...god..are u out there..please mi lord..tell me wad im supposed to do mi lord..pls lord..pls lord...i BEG u....amen...