Saturday, March 31, 2007
im single once again..totally single i suppose.. there isnt ani more of those supposedly responsibility that mi pathetic brain likes to hallucinate.. judging from mi expectations and gals' expectations..it's rather hard to find a gal of suitability.. thus, as such.. i wld prefer to b single..to be wad everyone insisted i wld best be..a bachelor..nt an eligible one..but at least a mediocre one..
haha..i used to luff..to smile everyday it has became a habit..but as time passes..as the rings of the trees increase.. as the 4 seasons sped by as though there reali aint much to reminisce..i haf grown a full 20 yrs.. and habits changed... thinking changed... the love for love changed.. and the insistence of a fairytale lasted no longer than a burning candle.. disturbing isnt it?? as u turn back to see a whole lot of trash behind u..the guilt..the disappointments.. the souls smashed..burned in the living hell.. i dared nt look back animore.. if i continue to try to mk miself look back..i wld nvr move fwd..they use to say 1 step forward and 2 steps back...haha..i suppose that ur either hallucinating again..or most probably ur on a treadmill..of cos the possibility of the latter wld serve to be more apparent and to most pple..most logical dun u tink??i like to insist on literal stuff..they deserve more acclaim than wad they exactly get..they dun get much of those dun u tink??
i used to believe in hell and heaven(of cos..hw can u belive the bad one and nt the gd one rite?)..
then one day.. i decided...mayb there reali aint a hell..juz heaven...haha..y??i like to believe so..y shld bad pple go to hell..if bad pple go to hell and nice ones heaven..then wldnt heaven be a lonely place?? then if such is the case..then the worst person..will he reign over hell..and sit beside the dark lord??hm.... mayb dun u tink??such a invincible tot.. satan.. they say they haf lotsa of faces... i tink he has onli one.. u noe y??cos it's juz a bad one..so wad's the pt of hiding it and changing when changing obviously doesnt change anithing..well..it doesnt juz apply to satan's face actually.. it applies for alot of things..actually most of the things in this world..
eee...a flawful world..boo...if u guys understand this entry..then it will be reali nice..cos i tink i used words of simple meaning..construct them in a broken way which will be deemed easier to comprehend than beautiful construction..u noe??haha...yup...tt i leave it to the writers to beautify the language..cos i reali dun give a heck..nite guys...it's a nice entry..if onli there aint so much negativity but more of positive things of this world..but then again..
why rely on optimisim when u clearly noe tt's nt gonna help u stand when u fall..help u look when u turn blind..and help u love when all u cld feel is hatred...nite again..