Friday, August 24, 2007
I took the first step, a genuine step, a big step... and i failed terribly.. i tried fer nearly half a yr, but nothing has blossomed, she said tt she appreciates, and she is v thankful.. But wad's there to show other than the few words she presented to me day in day out.. im so tired, im only human... And nvr had i been so patient wif anione, im going nuts, i din noe i can actually love someone so much.. and to teng her till i decide to give up and let her be hapi wif her present life. She said she cant handle relationships well, tt's y i haf been trying everything in my might to mk her feel loved, to give her anithing that is within my limits or possibilities, I dunno hw i feel, but i noe i juz treat her like a princess, but to her, im nothing much more than an orge..
I have fallen to fatigue, i chanced upon escape, and i took it.. becos i cld handle it no more, there's so mani issues nw fer me to decide and by escaping this r/s, allowing myself to indulge in selfishness again..
She decides that handling a r/s is nvr ez, tt's y i decide to leave her to where she is comfortable wif.. She once wrote in a msg, i put u behind my family in terms of priority, i smiled.. but nw, all is lost, and when i wld ever tink of her again, then mayb i will rem those silly times i shared wif this precious lil silly... all those encouragement to get the guy she liked then.. haha... The nxt entry is exactly the same, juz a more literary composition..